View of self

Recently I have been considering, how do I view myself? Everyone always tells me that I'm pretty,cute,small, and so on. I don't feel like this all the time. I want to feel pretty but boys are never attracted to me. In the past couple years the boys that have been interested in me are snakes, ugly or have a bad personality. Sorry if that sounds mean but it's how I feel. Why can't a beautiful, smart, sweet gentleman ever like me? I enjoy being with boys and all but I'm starting to give up on them!. Weight, That's a heavy subject. Haha, that was a good one. Anyway....I am not skinny but I'm not fat either. I would love to lose some weight but I don't have the motivation to exercise everyday. I feel lazy most of the time and see it as too much effort. I wonder why this is.... You know how some people feel good and pretty if their hair is in place, they have good clothes on, or  they are wearing makeup? Well, I feel pretty when I'm exercising everyday. I will have times in my life where I will run or do something active for about a month and then just when I'm starting to see results, I feel like that's good enough and I stop. It's annoying because I know that I'm so close and I just stop. I don't know....I need to examine my life and some how change the way I feel about my-self. It will be a hard journey but I believe I can do it.